Monday, June 8, 2015

Two and a Half Years

I had an idea to make a Soberbia Instagram page. So I did it.

You can find it there with this: s.o.b.e.r.b.i.a

I was two and a half years sober yesterday. This Brian Andreas picture hangs on the wall at 6 1/2 year old height outside my sons' room. It says:

"There has never been a day when I have not been proud of you, I said, though some days I'm louder about other stuff so it's easy to miss that."

With two and a half years has come more quiet, and more proud. I'm more apt to notice how proud I am rather than henpeck tiny mistakes imagined or real. I got down on my knees in the woods yesterday by my tree and gave prayer and thanks- thanks to the woods, thanks to my spirit, thanks to myself, thanks to all of my sobriety, to my family, to my heart. I find that with all this gratitude comes humility- a sense of being huge and small all at once. A sense of belonging in the world and to the world that is still so new to me. The last six months have been especially transformative- I suspect it's because I decided to be in charge of my life again. Not in control, in charge. There have been so many days in my life when I have not been proud of me. But now I'm much louder about the other stuff, so it's easier to miss that.


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  1. Love that quote - have just found you on Instagram, fun! And congrats on 2 1/2 years.. all extremely fabulous in my opinion xxx

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    1. Thank you Mrs D! You've been a treasured source of support the whole way. Xxxooo

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  2. I love that. What a beautiful post. Congrats on 2 and a half years! I'm off to have a look at your instagram page. Hope I can figure it out, I'm new to instagram! A x

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    1. Thank you! Instagram is a very low maintenance replacement for Facebook for me. (I quit Facebook 3 months ago- not sure if you're on it but I realized I was spending way too much time on there!) and thank you for all your comments and support :) xxxooo

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  3. I love this post! I especially love where you said you got on your knees in the woods and gave a prayer and thanksgiving—beautiful! The woods is my favorite place..such a spiritual place. Sobriety brings so many gifts. Congratulations on your 2 1/2 Years…that's something to be so proud of! I have 14 months today and am so grateful for that.

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    1. Congrats on 14 months! The woods is my favorite soul place too :) thanks for taking time to comment.

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  4. Great Work Amy! Sounds like it is all coming together!

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  5. What a beautiful picture and sentiment for your son, and all of us too :) Congrats Amy xx

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    1. Thank you! I just realized it the other day that not only is it a great sentiment for children, but to ourselves too. xxxooo

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  6. I LOVE this post especially the "in charge" part! What an empowering statement that is. I'm 401 days today, in charge of my life and so very grateful to be. I also LOVE the print and it's sentiment. I thin I must find it for my grandson. Congrats to you on all your success Amy

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    1. Thank you! In charge is different than in control. In charge means you aren't all grasp-y and single minded- that you can go with the flow and adapt to life in its' moments and days. 401 days is terrific! :) xxxooo

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