Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Here's to New

Happy New Year y'all!

I had my sparkling cider at midnight and only felt like tearing off to the wine store twelve times for a case of champagne. Breaking the bottles open in the car like I'm launching a ship and chugging them two at a time on the way home.

I searched for inexpensive beach houses to rent next summer instead. I watched Black Stallion with my oldest son. And I ate some cashews and coconut flakes. Drank my glass of RRGJ w/seltzer. (That's ruby red grapefruit juice.) Watched bad New Year's Eve coverage. Woke up tired but not hungover. Now that deserves some fucking fireworks! (I'll ask my neighbors. They seemed to have an endless supply last night.)

Today is a big day for lots of folk. I wonder if it's hard for January first to carry all that hope. I know it can be hard for us. I imagine all those intentions out there in the universe, eager to be fulfilled. All those best plans  set and ready. Whatever your plan, I hope you can be tough on yourself when you need to be. And gentle, brave, and encouraging with yourself too. And when you need a helping hand, ask. And I will, too.


  1. I like this. Tough, gentle, brave, encouraging and brave enough to ask for help when needed. Sounds good Amy. You are doing so great.... Happy New Year to you xxx

  2. Aw, such a lovely post, full of understanding, hope and humor. Yeah, you did great on your first NYE. Isn't it fun to plan vacations? That always makes me feel better, no matter how far off they are.

    Happy new year to you and may this be a wonderful year ahead!

  3. I had a great night too! Here is to a great New Year!

  4. Congratulations and happy new year. I'm on day 10 and have been enjoying your blog for a few weeks now. I'm drinking ginger sodas like they're going out of style and will now be picking up some rrgj today.

    I'm loving being sober and clear. Dealing with all these emotions is a bit tricky but I've decided to start yoga also-- I'm curious what else you are doing to ease the anxiety.

    1. Hi Lucy! Thanks for reading. Writing this blog is a huge comfort to me. I also get up waaaayyyy early so I make sure I have time for myself every day. Even if I just eat breakfast and drink tea and read other people's blogs for an hour or so it's MY TIME.

      I was doing yoga in the morning and then the pressure of doing yoga got to me so I stopped trying to fit it in. BUT! Yoga is a fantastic way to breathe and calm yourself down. I run several times a week and that's my time too.

      Always making sure to have a "special" beverage on hand for that 5 o'clock urge has been very crucial to me staying sober. I may be chugging a giant wine glass of it, but at least it's only seltzer and rrgj and not chardonnay. Sometimes it's comforting to gulp it even and then laugh to myself cause there's plenty left and I'm not worried if it runs out. And I can drink as much as I want and still feel fine the next day. :)

      YAY!!!!! for 10 days!!!! That is awesome and so hard. Feel free to write me anytime just to vent or get a pat on the back. Keep remembering how good it feels to wake up these days. And keep me posted on your progress please! :)

      p.s. something else that comforts me is reminding myself I have to be really really nice to me since I'm doing something that deserves a load of love and appreciation from myself.

  5. Did you quit cold turkey??